Over 2 years ago I was asked by my good friend and talented producer Katie Bender if I wouldn’t mind a feature documentary being made about me. My instant reaction was – seriously? Who would want to watch a documentary about me? A typical Australian reaction – we’re always ones to downplay ourselves…or at least I am.
I’ve always had issues with watching myself on TV. I think I was scarred in childhood. My (beautiful loving) mother video taped all my gymnastics competitions as a kid and whenever we had visitors around (which in my family is constant), she would bust out the tapes and show off my latest victory -or crash (which my brothers preferred). I HATED watching or hearing myself and to be honest, I still do but have learned to suck it up. I have no problem with doing video analysis, but I will never sit down to watch myself on TV. I discretely leave the room if I know I’m about to be on…weird.
So getting back to the documentary. I thought about it for a while. I thought about my son Kai whom I was dragging around the world to training camps and competitions. Surely he would feature in it and what a great thing to at least have him documented? I thought about the sport of aerial skiing. A small sport filled with amazing characters (past and present) doing CRAZY flips and twists off massive jumps. We make it look easy, but trust me, it isn’t. Surely the world would like to see that? The last time a movie was made about aerial skiing was in the 80′s – a movie called Hot Dog. I thought, maybe it was time for an update?
Lastly, I thought about myself. I thought about my story and what I had experienced in my athlete life. I had accomplished a lot and experienced so many moments of extreme joy and elation. But mostly, my career has been anything but smooth. I’d been riddled with injury and setback that constantly shook my confidence and tested my resolve. I thought about all the shit I had gone through to come out gleaming in Olympic Gold. And if Olympic Gold wasn’t enough, I wanted more. I wanted to break new ground. I wanted to go further than any female aerialist had gone before. I wanted to do the quad twisting triple – a trick only the men had mastered. Oh yeah…. AND I was going to do it as a mum.
Why? The reasons are buried so deep. They’re engrained in me…in my blood, in my heart. All it comes down to is that I’ve got this will in me to go further. To push myself harder. To see what I’m truly made of. I’ve got…. The Will To Fly
Now in it’s final edits, The Will To Fly is scheduled to be released in 2015 into the film festival circuit. Here’s a short teaser and I hope you like it!